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Saturday, October 9, 2010

NEW HORIZONS*

Cut my hair short. Deactivated Facebook.
<twas hacked 6x>
Needed to be far from all stimuli, far from the real world.
deactivated myself to reinforce my Truth.
To shut-down in order to re-open again.

I'm back to reality. i thought dreams would never end. to update~ i fell. I FELL IN LOVE.
it's a combination of everything worthwhile and painful, the stolen moments of teenage love. i amazed myself of how fast i fell in love with someone i barely knew; to someone i never even thought i would have a chance with. someone who did not fit what i call my wish lists; irrevocably; he shone through; like the key and opened my heart. a heart i thought that vanished.

i cut my hair, my MERMAID trademark. the nymph in me; it took a lot of guts & tears to reach up and even decide. it has been done. history has been changed. And so did I...
i need no more pain; i just have to detached anything from the outside to burn deeper because it already hurts. WHY, when i thought that happiness was already at my reach. at that corner.

when i look at myself at this point, i see a new mirage, a fancy new look. to remind myself of the covenant i made.  
EVEN IF HE SAID THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WORDS, THEY ARE JUST STILL WORDS 
i hold on to the rope where there is no assurance, if i have to fall back or hold-on. it's the sweetest to stay in my fantasy but each passing time reminds me that reality is near. what is real? I believe that LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL. this is my reality; as of *Now
HIS LOVE&MINE. i cried last night hoping for the best & preparing for the worst.

A Battle, I rest my oars. It shall be done if it is meant to be.LET GO. LET GOD.

finished Modern Biology - the 6th book. Dad will be back from Canada by November 5.
Finished"If Life is a Game, these are the Rules"

10 RULES FOR BEING HUMAN:
  • You will receive a body
  • you will be presented with lessons
  • there are no mistakes; just lessons
  • lessons are repeated until learned
  • learning doesn't end
  • there is no better than here
  • others are only mirrors of you
  • what you make of your life is up to you
  • all the answers lie inside of you
  • you will forget all of this at birth
 SIDE COMMENTS ABOUT IT AND MY OWN POV's
* i like the part it said that decisions are made in our brain; choices in real life thru actions
*WANT leads to CHOICE which leads to COMMITMENT; SHOULD leads to DECISION, which leads to SACRIFICE
*Everyone of us; we do have something that is free; it is CHOICE
*Learn to let go, when you have to. this is the key to happiness
*Have faith in yourself, because the universe has faith in you (PAULO COEHLO)
*Find inspiration in the simplest, smallest things of the daily life- these are the priceless ones
*Focus on the PRESENT. enjoy the ride! Sometimes; it's not the destination that matters; it's the JOURNEY
*When we were born, we were already equipped with everything we need. it is just up to us, if we see them, and use them for a purpose. for the betterment
*take some risks!
*OUR TIME ON EARTH IS BRIEF*
*There is no limit to who we can be, or what we can do.
*All you need it look, listen, trust & LOVE
*Our purpose here is to remind ourselves that we are here to learn; and when we do, newer and harder ones come more.
*Be present with what you are experiencing. time can not be replaced It be taken back once it is done
*Ask for answers; and you shall receive them, OPEN UP TO THE UNIVERSE AND IT WILL COME TO YOU.
*Listen with an open heart
*Explore all options. when yo are 90 years old; think back at all the great things you've done and done wrong. all of them makes up a package that is irreplaceable. we only regret the things which we didn't do!
*view crisis as an opportunity
*TRUST YOURSELF
*Do not be of a fain-hearted. believe in love; it believes in you. 
*Look within. pay attention to the little voice inside
*Extend and practice compassion to yourself and others. celebrate life.
*LOVE yourself; trust your choices and EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE!


 I end my blog with this most important lesson that lifts me up (i know I'm experiencing a down time but it's gonna be over soon and I'm going to be okay. I'm gonna shine through brighter for in pain; we heal; and in healing we appreciate chances and we still hope and hope.
People come in our lives, they either pass us by or they stay. Irregardless; they all bring an important lesson to learn.
NEVER TIRING.TO Love to the end,..

 LIMITLESSNESS

"what we call results are beginnings"




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