a Butterfly story~

i took all my courage to make a decision- to walk away from passion. after 2 days of no phone/communication _i found myself with him. he found me. 

so, he came back. crap, my plan has been sabotaged!

I use to be so strong-willed, now i know what makes me weak. my kryptonite ~ HIM.

1 smile, 1 look, and all my fears were gone. pretty crazy this thing called Love.

The storm is over(i wished even with our situation) we spent like madmen kissing, running, eating 'lelot' in the rain with our trusted friends. there's no bestest way to wake up in the morning and savoring the well-known Mabalacat Lelutan :P

took him at the bus station, i watch him leave as i watch him come back again& again

he must have had some sort of Magic glue in his hand when he first held mine; coz up till now- it didn't let go.

he was pretty busy with his budding career and extravagant surrounding there while i was busy formulating solutions here. obviously; i didn't have fun.

it is best, yes BEST not to put labels on myself as to what i am in his life. for it;s true, who am i?

but as my title means. if i love you enough, i understood that i have to LET U GO, in order to HOLD YOU. I must opened up my hands and let you soar, let you FLY...

you have so much in store for you; i only wish the best. use your wings for that success a boy like you deserves.

****

let go of wants, let go of expectations, let go of demands. just YIELD...

if we are right, the time will come.

NEW HORIZONS*

Cut my hair short. Deactivated Facebook.

<twas hacked 6x>

Needed to be far from all stimuli, far from the real world.

deactivated myself to reinforce my Truth.

To shut-down in order to re-open again.

I'm back to reality. i thought dreams would never end. to update~ i fell. I FELL IN LOVE.

it's a combination of everything worthwhile and painful, the stolen moments of teenage love. i amazed myself of how fast i fell in love with someone i barely knew; to someone i never even thought i would have a chance with. someone who did not fit what i call my wish lists; irrevocably; he shone through; like the key and opened my heart. a heart i thought that vanished.

i cut my hair, my MERMAID trademark. the nymph in me; it took a lot of guts & tears to reach up and even decide. it has been done. history has been changed. And so did I...

i need no more pain; i just have to detached anything from the outside to burn deeper because it already hurts. WHY, when i thought that happiness was already at my reach. at that corner.

when i look at myself at this point, i see a new mirage, a fancy new look. to remind myself of the covenant i made.  

EVEN IF HE SAID THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WORDS, THEY ARE JUST STILL WORDS 

i hold on to the rope where there is no assurance, if i have to fall back or hold-on. it's the sweetest to stay in my fantasy but each passing time reminds me that reality is near. what is real? I believe that LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL. this is my reality; as of *Now

HIS LOVE&MINE. i cried last night hoping for the best & preparing for the worst.

A Battle, I rest my oars. It shall be done if it is meant to be.LET GO. LET GOD.

INTIMIDATING DAW AKO

HOW MANY TIMES SHOULD A GIRL LIKE ME GETS TO BE PRE-JUDGED? 

i guess most people nowadays have nothin more important to do than look at a person and be intimidated. GET SOME LOVE YA'LL!

some boys dunno:

_i eat bagoong wit kamatis. lav et!

_tuyo with suka on fried rice shiit it's a fave lalu pag maulan

_ebun buru. want more?

_balot. isaw. taho. OO.

SUMMARY

August 30 - SINGLE!

Sept 3 - GF. Coo's pink roses, 6 ones and a letter that said I was wrong, I'm sorry :P SUPER FUNNY. parang galing pelikula as she was standing outside our house pouring her heart in broad daylight with people passing by. HEKEK. That's Love!

Sept 5- A sad story about family. She was the mom all along but the son thought of her as ate lang :(

Sept 6 - WOAH breakfast buffet in Quezon (not to mention, me and gara only had 3 hours of sleep. kinatak about love and pains) Sulo-Riviera Hotel 3-star. the bellboy looked like my ex. kept lookin at him, even volunteered to take a pic of me and motherlily around the hotel :)

went to Brains, Holding 8k in my hand and on the spot turned NO! (talk about spontaneous erratic decision0making samantha!) figured, the review for the nmat and the actual grade can be made for self-review. can save up from all mom's expenses, pwede kupa ipangshop un hehe and mostly just gotta trust that i can pass it up (except for physics urgh! WANTED: MATH TUTOR) 

Hindi Naman sa NMAT grade ang basehan kung magiging magaling kang Doktora

 (8k IS STILL 8K. GLAD TO HELP MOM ON THAT SAVING :p )

NEXT destination: CEM. gues what? NAIA kame napunta. Dad took the skyway and basically we got lost! hehek again. trued to make it up by loosing time in grenhills but pagdating dun, ay sarado ayun umuwi nalang ng pampanga! still got to shop though, in Sm pamp na nga lang. nagcommute pa after habang umuulan. my 2nd time na magjip from snfernando to angeles. amazing!

Spet 8 - The doc's libre in hanami!

Sept 9-10 SUPPOSEDLY DESPEDIDA PARTY in FONTANA *Edinburgh 3113*

Sept 10 - M3 SHOOTING! aiaia. joy viado. si papa Aga hindi ko nakita but TOM RODRIGUEZ smiled at us. friendly! WE EVEN HAVE A PIC! at super ngfroze lang ako nagtinginan kami after., dunno why i didnt kiss him shettt!!! OFMGG!!!

TODAY? IGNORED ALL HIS CALLS :/ PANININDIGAN*****

Future ٩(●̮̮̃•̃)۶

Cassiopeia :  (CASS-ee-uh-PEE-uh) Cassiopeia Kiss __________

Hunter : (HAHN-ter)  Hunter Yuan ______________